…..every thing in my life pretty much, except for a certain virtual world. I have had so much fun in there giving things to the people I like and for now really enjoying their company. I wish I could do more. It has really been fun. But the money has run out now… I bought clothes for three people and a pet for one person and gave materials and needed things to others. And one gets Caenis as a girlfriend, at least for a little while each day. (And he treats her special as a girlfriend too. :) ) And I get to kill stuff and watch sun rises and stand in the rain and fly and all kinds of cool impossible things…. I wish it was real. So badly. But the friends are real and I feel so at home with these people. They make me smile and laugh every day. 
Well, anyway, I need to get to bed. I just don’t want to dwell on the bad stuff before I lay down my head. I’d like to concentrate on the good. Right now the best of the good comes from that game… :) My sad and lonely and depressed self loves the lighthearted happiness that comes from those folks in there… And one in particular brightens my day every time I see him, green hair and all. 
Goodnight…Â