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Yes, it IS all about depression….

Thursday, October 22nd, 2009

…..every thing in my life pretty much, except for a certain virtual world.  I have had so much fun in there giving things to the people I like and for now really enjoying their company.  I wish I could do more.  It has really been fun.  But the money has run out now…  I bought clothes for three people and a pet for one person and gave materials and needed things to others.  And one gets Caenis as a girlfriend, at least for a little while each day.  (And he treats her special as a girlfriend too.  :)  )  And I get to kill stuff and watch sun rises and stand in the rain and fly and all kinds of cool impossible things….  I wish it was real.  So badly.  But the friends are real and I feel so at home with these people.  They make me smile and laugh every day.  :)

Well, anyway, I need to get to bed.  I just don’t want to dwell on the bad stuff before I lay down my head. I’d like to concentrate on the good.  Right now the best of the good comes from that game…  :)  My sad and lonely and depressed self loves the lighthearted happiness that comes from those folks in there…  And one in particular brightens my day every time I see him, green hair and all.  :D

Goodnight…  :)

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Results from MRI?

Friday, October 9th, 2009

Nothing’s wrong.  He’s got a perfect brain.  Ta-da!  Results from DNA and blood work aren’t back yet.  All in all everything went very well regarding the MRI day.   And, Max did well at the neurologist’s office this morning, though there was a very long wait and by the time we got done Max (and Cliff) was bouncing off the walls.  By the time we got home I had totally had enough.  Now I am worn out and my head hurts and I just really want to go into Perfect World and spend the rest of the day flying on my manta.  I think I might even switch to the laptop because typing on here is just too uncomfortable.  I am going to ask everyone to postpone the cake until tomorrow since Marjorie has to work until 8pm tonight…

PS- I forgot to mention, Happy Birthday to me.

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If I die tonight…

Monday, October 5th, 2009

…it’s because Max threw a toy and hit me on the head.  It’s still hurting and it’s been about 30 minutes since it happened.  :(  He is so aggressive right now.  :(

“Neko Mimi Mode” is going through my head….

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Well, while I am really super freaked out about tomorrow,

Monday, October 5th, 2009

with the MRI actually happening and all, I am also really over excited and flustered at what happened on my video game today, so, I’m kind of wound up.  :P

All my screenshots are on the lappy though so I’ll have to wait to post them, but damn, Caenis Snow had an absolute blast this morning doing some things I have never done before in that game.  And they called her “Snow” which for personal reasons of where the name originated, tickled me pink.  :D

This is the greatest guild in the world.  I’m swearing by this.  :D

Anyway, I felt like a dunce most of the way through because it was all happening so fast, but in the end everyone was so nice and amazing to me that I’m just glowing at the moment.  :D

Unfortunately, duty has reared it’s ugly head and I must face not only evening chores and cooking dinner but also the reality of the MRI and what we are facing tomorrow.  I’ll get a short while to play tonight and then we’re off to adventure and fear in the morning.  Wish us luck.  :(

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Well….

Sunday, October 4th, 2009

Everything I say I’m never going to do again, I do.  :P  Sorry, world.

Today, in the interests of trying to enjoy myself before the inevitable worry and fear sinking in for the rest of the week, I decided to create another venomancer character in Perfect World.  I remembered nearly everything I needed to do from when I played KyrilIobria earlier this year and last year.  (She’s my level 50 veno.)  Anyway, I don’t have time to go into the details right now because it’s after 2am and I should seriously be sleeping, but, long story short, I tried to help someone because no one else was.   He was shouting for help and everyone ignored him for like an hour, and I knew the answer to his question, so… And after I explained what he needed to do, he started being kind of clingy and I got nervous and this other guy stepped in and rescued me by asked me to join him and his LEVEL 83 friend for a while to run some killing quests.  In the time it took to pry myself away from the one guy the level 83 left, but the other guy remained and even though I explained I didn’t really need the help with the quest I thought it would be nice to have someone with me to keep the creepy guy away.  So we played together on different quests for about an hour, maybe two.  Of course, with thousands of interruptions from Max and the phone, etc. and all.  I explained that my child is disabled and that I would have to go often (my usual reason for never squading with anyone) and he said he would protect me while I was gone, and he did!  He was in a guild but never mentioned the guild to me and in the end added me as a friend so I felt obligated to add him.  I think he’s a teen.  Seems that way anyway.  He told Caenis she was “awesome” in the end of the adventure and promised to return and help her more tomorrow.  :oops:

I was hoping I would run into one of my guild mates, but most of them are in Archasaur so I never ran across one.

In any case, it was nice to have someone to keep the creepy guy away, and nice not to worry about anyone else bothering me.  He didn’t talk about anything personal, it was all game talk, so it seemed pretty safe.  Of course, that could change tomorrow if he comes on gushing with love for Caenis.  She’ll have to tell him she’s married to Caius or Gensi or Raven…  Though I would rather she was Raven and Caius’ sister (by adoption – they don’t look a thing alike) and Gensi’s girlfriend, or Raven’s daughter maybe.  He’s old enough to have a daughter that age.  I love the sister of Caius idea, because I named her with that in mind: Caius and Caenis.  Both Latin names.

Anyway, I got her from 0 to 15 in one day, with dozens of interruptions and about an hour of TV with Cliff and another hour of anime and taking care of Max too.  So, I think I did pretty good.  Level 20 tomorrow.  Possibly 25.  If I’m very lucky and Max behaves well, I’ll make 30.  Then I’ll contact the guild and see if they’ll let me in.  Or, who knows, maybe I’ll end up in another guild….  In any case, really fast, because I’ve talked longer than I intended to already, here some cropped screenshots:

caenissnow

I was trying to go for that – if I was twenty-some years younger and didn’t wear glasses, look.  You know, no fat, no glasses, perfect skin, lovely hair.  All the stuff I WISHED I looked like back then.   :lol:

caenissnowponytail

It’s hard to tell, but she’s got a ponytail.

Of course, that’s the character creation screen.  Here’s what she looks like in the actual game, at night, even.

caenissnownight

By the way, the costumes are always ridiculously revealing on the women.  No choice.  They simply are.  :P

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And here, with her squad mate just as we were parting ways.  (He’s level 41 by the way.  These creature were one shot kills for him.)

After he left for the night she went to the City of the Lost because she had some business to take care of, and there in the middle of a quiet part of the city were a collection of super amazingly good looking guys.  So, rather than stare, I did a “run-by” screenshot and got at least one of them.

caenissnowguys

Unfortunately, he had turned around before I got the shot.  :P

Oh well…  :D

And now I seriously HAVE to go to bed.  :P

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Today was a very long day….

Saturday, October 3rd, 2009

It started okay and continued just fine, but then, in the evening, all hell broke loose and everything went to you know what.

Max’s doctor is changing his meds and adding a new one, added physical therapy to his schedule, the new worker is nice but I’m afraid my lack of being able to tell him just what to do is going to hinder things, next week looks like absolute shit, the child support has finally started back up again (yay – Christmas might just be saved), Max’s aggression is completely out of control, Max’s destructive tendencies are also completely out of control.  I am completely exhausted, but still managed to play Perfect World about half the day.  Today I was trying to level Caius up in all his manufacturing skills.  I also got him up to level 27.  Just three more to go and he’ll be able to fly.

I went in for a while as my veno girl, BlooMoon, and immediately got hit on hard by a barbarian who wanted to know where I was from, etc.  Great.  :P  That City of the Lost is nothing but a virtual sex den at times!  Of course they are the animal people over there, but still….

So today I was Caius:

caiustoday

But tomorrow I plan to be Gensi:

gensitomorrow

Aren’t they both just gorgeous?  :oops: :lol:

And now, I’m going to bed.

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So far, today is the second best day I’ve ever had in a guild.

Thursday, October 1st, 2009

It could change later, but today has been great.  Caius made a new friend and got promoted in the guild and invited him! (Or her? Hey, you never know and I’m not asking!)  Ha!  And then he  learned to trade stuff with one of the other members which, because I played solo before, was something I had never done.  Caius is turning out to be an okay guy.  But broke.  Oh man, so broke.  :P  He’s got less than 10000 coins.  Very bad.  Anyway though, I had to make myself stop and eat so I’m off to watch Kyo Kara Maoh!.  Episode (gulp) 103 out of 117.  :(  So depressing.  I’m going to miss this one when it’s over.

You know, on a side note, Uru just never felt this fun.  Honestly EQ2 had some fun moments but nothing like this.  I wonder if it’s because I’m role playing for real this time I can be more out going than I normally am?  Usually, I’m just meek quiet me, even in games, but acting as Caius I am having a blast being the strong, mostly silent, killing machine type.  :D

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goodnight

Thursday, October 1st, 2009

I have lots to worry about, lots to do, lots to think about and deal with, but tonight I just need to put it all aside and go to bed.  All I will say is, making Caius was a very good thing.  I am having so much fun and I met a very nice woman who has an autistic son who’s 24.  She’s in my guild and I am thrilled to know someone else who is living almost exactly the same way I am living, purely by accident.  I said it was fate joining this guild.  I was right.  ;)

And here’s a parting shot for tonight….

caiusandsunset

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That was the most virtual killing fun a girl could have in one day.

Wednesday, September 30th, 2009

Seriously.  Well, for a girl “role playing” a guy that is.  Oh my god, I never enjoyed being in a faction/guild so much.  I got just one screenshot and it’s on my laptop, so it’ll have to wait for tomorrow, but Caius had a blast with four of his fellow guildies and later Gensi (and all the other guild members lower than level 20) was issued a challenge to get to level 20 asap.  He went from 11 to 18 from about 5pm to 1am.  (Even with countless interruptions from Max, talking to the family and stopping for dinner too.) :mrgreen:

Gensi even got complemented!  The guy running the guild asked if he was the alt of another really high level player in the guild.  I said no, he’s the alt of Caius Snow.  Ha!  That was so cool.  I seriously love playing as a guy in there and I don’t think I’ll go back.   At least not in Perfect World.  :mrgreen: :lol: :mrgreen: :lol:

I don’t really have other news to tell at the moment.  The new worker guy starts with Max on Friday.  I can talk more about that then.

Oh man, I love role playing in there.  :D
That was so much fun!  :D
I can go to bed happy now.  :D

Just imagine me saying “eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee”!

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As promised, here’s that screenshot.   Click it to see the full size.

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Major malfunction at website central!

Monday, September 28th, 2009

Actually, the server was down for two days.  They had something fail and had to fix it.  All I had to re-upload were my two screenshots from yesterday.  More talking tomorrow!

PS-  Caius is level 22, Raven is level 21.  I never got the chance to play Gensi.  I will make up for that tomorrow.

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