On a whim yesterday I got Marjorie to take me over to see Mom. It wasn’t exactly a whim, we had said we were going to get together, but the day hadn’t turned out as originally planned and rather than wait and try to get her by phone (which was busy because she was talking to Nathan! :D ) I asked Marjorie to drop me off over there right after lunch. So, I went and Mom bestowed upon me several stacks of books which I will look at probably when Max is not home, some food, some drink mixes, a protein supplement, and lots of really good advice about this body business we have both been struggling with for years. (Though I am by far the winner in the overweight department.) One important thing that she loaned me was a book called “Crack the Fat Loss Code” by Wendy Chant and in this book, somewhere very close to the beginning is a line that says:
“Your body needs food to survive. In fact, your body always thinks the last thing you ate is the last thing you’ll ever eat.”
That got me…. Not as much from a weight loss stand point as from a “Max’s angle of life” standpoint. That’s exactly what he thinks every time he eats. And that’s probably why he over eats and probably why he used to always, and sometimes still does, ask for one last plate of food to keep next to him that he doesn’t eat. because he’s worried about his next meal…. What a thought. And to think my own metabolism thinks the same way makes perfect sense. Mom says it’s all about anorexia which she had long ago and I had in high school… It trained our bodies to think starvation… So now I have to switch gears on this big apple shaped body thing and make it learn it doesn’t need to store so much food all the time.  So, in practice of this idea I am going to stretch my three course lunch into three small meals. I’ll have my salad, then later my pasta, and later after that my chicken, or some order of that arrangement. I will probably actually have the pasta first then later the chicken and finally the salad because I treat my salads as dessert since I don’t use salad dressing but lemon slices on them, they are more of a crunchy thing at the end. But in any case, I will break up my lunch into three and spread it out over the day. I’m not eating any MORE of anything, I’m just eating it separated and spread out instead of lumped together. We’ll see how it goes.
One other massive thing I learned while there at Mom’s yesterday was discovered by stepping on her scale. I haven’t been weighed since about six months after Max was born. And *shock* I stepped on Mom’s scale yesterday and I weigh exactly the same thing I did then. It just doesn’t seem possible, does it? I thought for sure I was 300 pounds. Instead I am far less than that. It’s like losing a ton of weight in one day!!!! I was so happily surprised!!! I still need to drop this extra person I’m carrying off, but this extra person I’m carrying isn’t the 200 pounds I thought they were anymore! Yay!!! 
When I got home, after getting Max settled and getting chores done and everything, I signed up at a place called Calorie Count and logged in all the food I ate for the day. I also put in the 2 minutes (approximately) of climbing up and down Mom and Chris’ stairs I did yesterday (the only exercise I actually got) and it showed me how much calories I burned just doing that tiny bit of movement. It set my goal as 125 pounds by Sept. 24th, 2011, based on a sedentary lifestyle. I’ll have to check and see what it tells me if I do some moderate exercise like walking again or walk/bouncing on the trampoline.
I will do a little bit of walking on the trampoline today and log that in and see what that does to my calorie burn factor.
I was logging all of this stuff on my own in a text file, but this site does all the hard work for you and has every food you can imagine in their database. I love logging in and doing stuff, I mean I am an addicted blogger, so that part should be easy! I had already kind of slacked off on the text file version.
In other news Cliff and I went to Walmart yesterday and even though we really didn’t have the money he let me buy 2 pairs of black leggings which are coming back in style or something and they had them in my size for just $7 each!!!! (They actually had brown ones too and I should have bought at least one of those but oh well.) When we got home I put one pair on and holy cow, skinny legs galore! I love them so much!
The other thing I bought myself was a lipstick. I took forever trying to decide what color, but in the end I chose kind of a warm peach color leaning more towards pink (516c – Sunset Peach)… I know my skin tone leans toward warm, but I didn’t want anything too orange so it took me forever to decide. It actually practically disappears on me, so I might should have gotten the 551c – Sevilla Sangira or 515C – Hollywood & Wine, but anyway, they’re only $0.93 at Walmart, so if I want a different one later I can go get one… I’d like to get a whole makeup kit based on a warm complexion, but it’ll be a while before that can happen, so we must wait.
In other related news, my Reeboks are slowly and agonizingly fading to dust. Every time I put them on now another bit falls off. I guess I need some new shoes. I want two pairs though… I want a walking shoe for exercising and a slip on shoe for going out to the store and meetings and such. Something like this: ULU Women’s Meribel Clog for going out and maybe this: Easy Spirit Women’s Romy Sneaker for walking. I found another shoe for walking that’s a nice brown color that I REALLY like, but it’s way too expensive, especially in my size 10. Honestly, I’ll end up with whatever we can find at Walmart (all crappy choices) because all of those shoes at Amazon are too expensive. (I draw the line at “air pillow” shoes though. Absolutely NOT. Those are junk.)
It must be hot outside today, or else my hormones are kicking up again. (My never ending period is STILL GOING ON, damn it.) I guess I’d better go grab my shower before anyone else decides to go in there. Maybe that’ll cool me off. There are some other things I’d like to talk about, but I think I need to leave those for my dairy.
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PS! I also need two more things! A scale of my own… I like this one: EatSmart Digital Bathroom Scale and a food scale like this one: American Weigh Digital Bowl Kitchen Scale.  Of course I added everything to my Amazon wishlist, as usual.
